Once I cleared my life out I found plenty of free time to invest in myself. I mentioned in the video I listened to several books on CD while I was cleaning out my house or getting ready to see clients, on my drives to yoga class, and so forth.
I didn’t have anyone in person to guide me so I used these materials to keep me going in a direction that was more positive.
I began to take responsibility for my life and where I was. I affirmed to myself that I was brave, bold and adventuresome. I was determined to make a U turn in the direction of my life and get back on track with where I saw myself. I knew I had potential. It was a matter of discovering it.
I realized everything was a reflection of me. If it was in my life and I didn’t like it, then it needed to go. It was time to rise from the ashes and make something for myself. But first I needed to CLEAN HOUSE and get everything out of my life so that I had room to fill up on the good stuff.
I went through every nook and cranny of my materialistic belongings. My clothes, makeup, toiletries, pantry, collection of books, DVDs, CDs , etc. I scoured my home while I scoured my body.
I began fasting. I just felt like cleaning the garbage out of my body too. I made sure my liver and colon were pristine. Then once all the food was out of my house. I decided I deserved the best. I no longer wanted to eat anything from a can or box. Processed and packaged food wasn’t fit for this body. The more I saw my body emulate the ideal version of me the more excited I was about nourishing it properly.
I even cleaned up the way I spoke. I honored the absent and spoke as though the person I was talking about was standing right next to me. I wouldn’t allow myself to speak poorly of anyone. I refrained from swearing and using words that were not worthy of the highest.
I stopped lying. I realized that if I felt I had to lie that I was doing things that I didn’t like. I also knew that lying was not accepting myself and it was only a reflection of that. This included little white lies. Besides, I didn’t want to attract liars in my life and I would ifI lied myself.
I detoxed all of my beliefs. I no longer accepted anything that I had been taught from religion, to limitations, to rules. I felt that I no longer was limited by time, energy, space or matter. There were no rules. I took on the attitude suggested by Wayne Dyer, ” Nobody knows enough to be a pessimist”.
I ditched my negative complaining about myself and others. I also stopped allowing others to dump their dis empowered drama on me. I didn’t want to hear how they were victims in their life. I didn’t want to listen to it. I straight out said, ” Don’t you have better things going on in your life to talk about this?” I told them that this was the last bitch session and to start talking about all the things that were going right for them. I was only allowing them to attract more crap into their life by listening to it.
I started putting more attention into my appearance. I acted as though I needed to be prepared for meeting people I wanted in my life. If I looked a mess, it just reflected that I was a mess inside. Same for my home. I kept it immaculate, as though if someone I highly admired was to knock at my door at any given moment. It was about being prepared for good to come.
Inspired by Share Your Shame by Steve Pavlina and our chat during our recent visit . This is also inspired by Peas on Earth by Bunny Berry. I decided if I am participating in Peas on Earth, I should include making peas or Peace with my past.
So, call this what you will. It felt like a confessional video and after I uploaded it I felt a comforting sense of calm. It’s a sense of not caring what others think, but being open and true to what I have lived to get to where I am today. I admit my past has been quite colorful, but it is only making my journey through life so much sweeter.
Like me or not, this is a part of what made me who I am. I love where I have been but even more where I am going.
Last Friday, I was in Las Vegas and I had the pleasure of meeting Steve Pavlina at his home. I really didn’t know much about Steve prior to our meeting. A friend on mine named Jon posted a blog in January stating that Steve Pavlina was doing a 30 day raw experiment. All I knew is that he posted blogs online and anyone who gives raw a chance is good in my books.
A few months later, I met him through an online website for raw food enthusiasts: GiveItToMeRaw.com. After we became acquainted, I became more curious. One day I was listening to a radio interview. I totally identified with him. We have very similar stories. I felt like I was listening to my own interview. It was strange. I wanted to know more. I knew I had plans to celebrate a birthday party in Las Vegas. It would be even better to meet him since I knew he lived there.
I decided to send an email out to Steve to see if he would be interested in meeting another raw food junkie. 🙂 I hoped for the best but expected the worst. His response was music to my ears. He was available and agreed to meet. We planned to met at a raw restaurant, but then due to his juice feast he decided it would be best to meet at his home.I have to admit for a moment I was a bit put back that he invited me to visit him in his home.
I never meet “strangers” from the Internet, especially a man in his home. Then, I felt a sense of peace. First of all, that says so much about a person. I felt that he was truly generous and trusting. Our homes are out sanctuaries. I felt honored that from our brief interaction that he would invite me to meet there.
We exchanged stories and experiences over juice. During our chat, I mentioned there were a few things I didn’t feel comfortable with sharing in a blog. After his encouraging words, I am taking his advice. I will be posting a blog about some of my biggest fears or just things I probably wouldn’t normally share on the Internet. I truly feel that sharing my stories will be beneficial for my growth. I have been blogging occasionally on gaia, but nothing too personal, except every now and then. I have been inspired to share my experiences online in a more consistent and personal way. Here I go! I love vlogging (video blogging) and feel that I am better at expressing myself in video than in writing, so I will be doing both.
Steve sent me along my way with a copy of his book that I began reading as soon as I arrived back at the hotel room. I am looking forward to sharing the insight I receive from his book and what actions I am inspired to take as a result from his words. I agree that we cannot outgrow personal growth. I am fascinated be human potential and look forward to challenging myself to new levels of conscious living.
I may be a little behind the times as far as movies. I just watched “The Bucket List” last night. I was in tears(AGAIN)… I love movies that make us want to live better lives and this movie did just that for me.
After the movie I made a list of what I would want to do if I only had 30 days to live. Talk about a time crunch, right? So, 30 things went on my list. I wasn’t very hard to pull it together. It really just affirmed that I need to move forward with my dreams and do the silly things that I put off. Then I asked my 2 kids (12 and 10) to write their list. It really helped me understand what they valued and dreamed of doing. It makes me want to be a better mother for them and provide them the opportunities to do what it is they feel is important. I became all teary eyed reading their list. Some things are so small that they seem insignificant, yet it means the world to them. How well do we know our loved ones?
Well, here is my list of 30 things.
1. Go on a hot air balloon ride 2. Play on a flying trapeze and practice gymnastics with my kids 3. Jump off the rock at Waimea Beach (I always want to but I chicken out) 4. Swim with dolphins and sea turtles 5. Kayak out to rabbit island and have a picnic 6. Go horseback riding (I LOVE HORSES) 7. Spend the day surfing, laying on the sand, playing volleyball 8. Watch the sunset, a fire pit on the beach, BBQ, make smores and watch the stars 9. Live in a tree house on a tropical retreat, pick food from the garden 10. Travel to Fiji 11. Travel to Bali 12. Travel to Greece 13. Travel to New Zealand & Australia 14. Mentor under an amazing raw food chef & create edible works of art 15. Visit all the amazing raw food restaurants 16. Spend time at a wellness spa 17. Have a massage everyday 18. Have a make over and look as beautiful on the outside as I feel on the inside 19. Go snowboarding, sledding, snowmobiling, & ice skating 20. Learn to sew with Mehgan 21. Learn to play the guitar with Alex 22. Take couple dancing lessons 23. Take interior design and landscape design classes 24. Enjoy intimate concerts by Jack Johnson, Michael Buble, Jason Mraz 25. Go rock climbing & have a picnic on top 26. Swim in a waterfall lagoon naked 27. Enjoy a helicopter ride 28. Ride bikes along the coast 29. Play hide and go seek in the dark with my kids 30. Go indoor skydiving ,then maybe try the real deal 🙂
Making this list reminded me of how many things I would love to do but I put off. Is this “put off” a slap in life’s face? Life is meant to be lived. I felt like I have taken my life for granted. It’s good to be reminded and humbled. My kids always say…life is meant to be fun and enjoyed. If today was my last day to live, would I spend it any differently? Would you?
“I leave you free to be yourself: to think your thoughts, indulge your tastes, follow your inclinations, behave in ways that you decide are to your liking.” – Wayne Dyer in “There is a Spiritual Solution to Every Problem”
“The greatest gift you can give to anyone. Your children, your mate, a stranger, anyone is to say, ‘I am self sufficient and I am in charge of the way I feel. And you all just go and do your thing and be however you need to be and I will selectively sift from among you, even the specific components of each of you and I will practice those components that resonate with my source until I have practiced a vibrational frequency that becomes my proclivity, it becomes my mood, it becomes my point of attraction and I will illicit from you things that make me feel wonderful when I illicit them.” We should be willing to say “Do anything you need to do or want to do. It really isn’t any of my business what you do. It is my business to find things in you that please me.” – Abraham (Esther Hicks)
Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow. ~Swedish Proverb
If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting? ~Stephen Levine
Present your family and friends with their eulogies now – they won’t be able to hear how much you love them and appreciate them from inside the coffin. ~Anonymous
Relationships offer us an opportunity to share and grow. By being uplifting ourselves we are uplifting others. We all deserve to feel loved and the first love starts with ourself. Life is filled with enough pain and drama. Be the feel good person in other’s lives in it will bring you peace in your own life.
When you spend one hour a day, six days a week on any subject that you desire, the educational value that your receive after one year is equivalent to an associates degree. After 2 years, your educational equivalent is a bachelors degree, 3 years is equivalent to a master’s degree, 4 years is equivalent to a Phd, and after 5 years of study/practice for one hour a day, 6 days a week your education is equivalent to that of a national expert.
Favorite Quotes
“When you feel enthusiasm to do something, it means you’ve lined up the Energy, and you are being inspired to take action from that point of alignment. When you don’t feel like doing it, don’t push yourself, because your effort is not worth it. But, when you line up the Energy, the feeling of procrastination goes away. ” – Abraham
“Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.” – Chinese Proverb
The very best thing you can do for the entire world is to make the most of yourself. – Wallace Wattles
Intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death. – Albert Einstein
The great thing in the world is not so much where we stand, as in what direction we are moving. – Oliver Wendell Holmes
Without continual growth and progress, such words as improvement, achievement, and success have no meaning. – Benjamin Franklin
The unexamined life is not worth living. – Socrates
There are no such things as limits to growth, because there are no limits to the human capacity for intelligence, imagination, and wonder. – Ronald Reagan
The growth and development of people is the highest calling of leadership. – Harvey S. Firestone
If you are running through life feeling overwhelmed and not really making the impact you know you want, or wishing you felt alive and filled with passion then you are going to LOVE me!
